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Thursday, March 13, 2008

I bet you dont even know the amount of assignments & projects that i have.
I bet you dont know my everyday schedule.
Did you think i have all the time in my world during the March hols? How dumb you are. Well look, on the first day of March hols,Monday, i had to go back to school for a Class Committee workshop together with my 3 other classmates. It lasted 9 hours. By the time i got home, it was already some time around6pm. How exhausted i was then, yet, i still woke myself up mentally to do my assignments. The next day, Tuesday, i, again, had to go back to school for CIP. I did so much, so obviously i ended up like a dead fish when i got home. I couldnt afford to do anything but my assignments. Wednesday, i went all the way to Bedok to do proj at my friend's place. That day itself, i didnt feel well. I didnt say it out, i still headed off for the project. I came home restlessly. I knew i still had lots to do, and that i couldnt and musnt waste my valuable time lying on the bed and relaxing myself. Being a Dunmanian, i knew that i had to be responsible in whatever i do, including my work. Right, that's why i idiotically tried to stay awake to do continue my work.
This is only my first 3 days. How are the rest of the hols gonna be spent? I'm very sure it's gonna be all the same. You see how i'm struggling now?
Although some people out there may be thinking : "What the heck is this idiot thinking? It's merely homework and i've got more than you have."
Yes, i'm very, very sure millions of people have tonnes more than i have. But hey, i'm only a Year 1 student. I'm trying to adapting to the changes. Primary school was so much easier back then. It's an extreme change. All Year 1 students are adapting, yes, but i believe i'm different in the way that i face more obstacles. The lectures i'm given so often are already enough to kill me. So many more problems that i'm not supposed to say it out. I'm having everything bottled up in my heart. This isnt the life a Year 1 student should be getting... ...
I dont wish for anyone (referring to people who know me) to approach me to ask me about it. The most i can tell is Bridget and Siqi. I'm sure only the both of them can cheer me up. They are the ones whom i know i can turn to, to confide, to ask for help, without any insults, critisms. Though, it's rather sad to think that i-know-who-the-ones-are arent the people i think of immediately whenever i need help. It's not my fault. I dont feel i belong. And they dont bother to make me feel so.

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